rant rant rant, bitch bitch bitch
I’m tired of being cooped up in this house. I’m tired of feeling alone. I know you’re here all of the time, but it still feels lonely. I feel alone, like there is so much I want to share with you, but I can’t because it doesn’t feel like you have time.
I need help. Only a single night out. You said we’d do something to make up for our one year anniversary, nothing happened. We didn’t even do ANYTHING for Valentines Day. It makes me feel like I’m not good enough. You spent your paycheck on marijuana… tell me how that benefits a holiday for couples? Oh wait, it doesn’t.
This is why I feel so alone. I can’t participate in your extra activity of smoking weed. I don’t get even talked to when Brady is over. I get pretty much ignored. My friends don’t come around. You’re currently on the phone with your dad… I miss having the warm company of you. and my friends.
We talked about marriage, but I have seen no ring or even a promise, nor a promise ring. It hurts and makes me feel like you’re unsure if you want to spend your life with me, like you don’t know if you’re going to want me forever like you tell me you do. I just want US to be like we used to be. But that can’t happen can it?
I remember the first day we spent together after a long month of you being away at work. I was so nervous when you walked in. I miss the happiness we shared. I feel like you don’t share enough with me. Your thoughts and feelings. You said that there are things on your mind that you don’t want me to worry about, but I am worried. We are a team now, partners, and lovers. But if yoiu don’t think you can share those thoughts with me, then I don’t know if we will work.
You know, I didn’t get anything from you for valentines nor our one year anniversary…I didn’t even get anything from my mother.
Our relationship has been so distanced… I miss you… the real you that I fell in love with. Those things you said to me on the phone and on facebook, where is that man? Where did he go?